I turn 31 on Jan 14th. How did that small little girl grow up to be so demented, disturbed, troubled and psychotic? I can't explain. What's the point. I'm usually very excited during this time of the year cos I like birthdays. But this year.... it's just not the same. Probably because I'm still injured and feeling very low. And taking too long to recover. Yuck.
I don't know how old was I in that picture. Here's another one.
I don't have many childhood pictures that are still there physically. Cos one day I went berserk and burnt all my photos. So much for trying to erase myself. I'm still here. Demmit.
This picture was from Form 3. I was 15.
I can't remember about this one. I think I should have been 17 by then. I think.
Ahhh... one of the peak stages of my fatness. I don't remember how heavy I was in this picture. But my heaviest was 91kg. Just about 3 years ago.
I do miss Jia and Rizal. Probably cos they were one of the few friends who accepted me when I was so fat.
This was the lowest weight I have ever been since peaking at 91kg. This was 63.8kg on 25th Nov 2011. Just a day before I crashed the bike and put on 3 kilos since then cos I can't exercise due to the head injury sustained.
I've always been a slow learner. It takes me some time to understanding something. Last year was probably the craziest year ever for me. Last year I had the best job in the world. My boss and teammates were not based here with me. So I took the opportunity and chased 9 full marathons, two 100k's and 9 triathlons, not including Powerman and other smaller distance running events in between. I even tried to go up Mount Kinabalu in 3.5 hours for that Climbathon thing. I've never even been up that mountain on a leisure basis. I did so much last year, it's really psychotic. But overall I think I did okay for a fat girl.
But as I turn 31 tomorrow and 2012 just started with me being jobless, hmm... what's in store for this year? I'm aiming for an Ironman Western Australia finish in Dec. I don't know if I will make it. But I always start out races like this. Now knowing if I will. I just know I will be more satisfied knowing I tried. Instead of being on the sidelines and wondering if I can. But then most, if not all, female metal monkeys are like this. Let's try everything at least once. Can't find a party? Make your own.
To each one of you who've been so patient as my friend, congrats to you for surviving another crazy year with me! :D Hahaha.... Here's to 2012. I look forward to finding out what else is in store!
You really give me aspiration and respect you have the guts to participant the ultra marathon.
ReplyDeleteHi KingKong
DeleteSorry I hardly logged in or blogged anymore. But thank you for your kind words.
Almost forgot, be healthy always.
ReplyDeleteHi. I just stumbled across your blog. I just got into running a year ago. I think the courage and guts you have to join all those races is uh-mazing. I hope you have recovered by now. Don't give up. In the few posts I've read so far you have accomplished so much and I feel in awe and inspired just by reading it. :)
ReplyDeleteHi Lerie
DeleteThank you so much for reading and for dropping a note. I have recovered. I just tend to slur in my speech and thought. It's a really long and lonely journey. I hope you're surrounded by great supportive friends. That's the support network that will help you progress further. For me, I've to do this alone. I wish it wasn't. But I'm too far gone for anyone to help me.
Take care, Lerie. God bless you.